I was having a texting conversation with a friend about some
shoes I was considering buying. They were a little pricy, but of course I could
justify them due to the increasing number of mornings I hobble out of bed with
foot pain,(If you don't know what I'm talking about just wait, 40 is right
around the corner). They are the Dansko brand which are expensive by nature,
but I had found them online at a good price, (score!). The conversation was
about whether or not I should confess to Tom that I was planning to get these
very necessary, yet wallet-squeezing pair of shoes.
"I just have to decide if I'm going to sneak-buy them now
and take the consequences later or be a grown up and say something before I buy
them" I said.
"Say something now and get it over with and buy
them...it's a great price!" was her advice.
So I humbly confronted Tom to tell him I was getting these
shoes because I really need them and they are really a bargain, compared to
full price! It actually didn't go as bad as I thought. In fact, I don't know
why I'm so reluctant to divulge my little spending sprees, which really don't
happen that often. Maybe it's because as wives and mothers, we don't feel like
we deserve to indulge a little on ourselves every once in a while. I mean, I
have shoes that are older than Sammy, so why do I feel like I need to ask
permission to replace them? Maybe it's because there's always someone else who
needs something so we feel guilty putting ourselves ahead of someone's new pair
of winter boots.
If I'm confessing here I probably should say that my sneak-buy
it now-repent later spending isn't anything new. Tom has already learned the
old "buy something and destroy the packaging-leave it in the closet for a
week and then wear it saying that it isn't new" a long time ago. Now he
says "When'd you get that?" instead of "Is that new?" I'm
really trying to turn over a new leaf, especially after last tax season when I
had to sit next to him and scroll through pages of books I had bought off
Amazon for my classroom without his knowledge. And then I wonder why he thinks
I spend more that I really do? So I humbly pledge to turn over a new leaf. No
more sneak-buying...right after I check out the sale at Old Navy.
